Errkk!!

Hate hate hate my arms!!!!!! Arghhh!!!!!

Erk!

It's already February and know what I'm feeling now?

I feel fatter and bigger! And apart from me being happy with the whole situation around me, I am not at all impressed with this feeling of fatness!

My mum commented this morning about me being 'bigger' ever since i joined the gym. Though a bit pissy about it, I must admit that I do feel big. Hmmm... So much for wanting to lose weight and toning my already humongous arms! *sigh*. I am so sad now.

But I guess every problem definitely has its solutions. So in order to not be so bummed out with my pathetic state (especially since my big birthday is just around the corner. eeek!!), I have decided to just not eat like a pig, and resort to protein diet for the time being. (Ok, I can see loads of disapproval looks from you lots, but a girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do!!).

Been complaining about my arm getting bigger to P, in which his reply was for me to actually measure my 'big' arms to see if it is true that it's getting bigger.

I just don't know why, I was pissy about the suggestion too. It might be the way he suggested it (intonation of voice and all), OR it might be that the response i got from him was not the kind of response i was expecting!

What I really wanted was some comfort words like, 'Don't worry babes. We'll try to determine the cause of it', OR, 'Really? I didn't notice that. You might be imagining things. Let's just try it again but this time we'll try to eliminate things that might make the arms bulk up like you claim them true'.

Arghh!! I just need some kind of understanding in all this.

But after whining and complaining to my trainer, this was what he said....

'It might be that you have more male hormone level that made you bulk up'

'Are you sure those (referring to the fatty arms) are really fat in there? It might be that you're building muscles'

'But seriously, people would think that you're a trainer just by looking at your body'

Another 'arghhh!!'......

I don't want all that bull****! What I want is for me to just lose weight (overall and also at my arms!! I hate them).

Bought L-carnitine and chlorella, and also magnesium and calcium supplements for meself yesterday. Hope to see results.

Oh yeah.

Only drank Milo for breakfast.

Go figure........

P/s : I need new court shoes!! Mine's stinky and got holes on it already

=(