Mohd Shariff Lubis & Hanis Marina ~ Akad Nikah

Wow! Look how time flies! My last entry was somewhere in May where I had my ankle 'pop'ed prior to my Singapore trip, and prior to my wedding in August. Thereafter, loads of stuff happening that I had not that much of a time to update my blog.

Will tell you all about them in my entries to come. In the meantime, here are some pics of the solemnization ceremony held at my house on 08.08.08. Nice date,huh? (Though I do think my hubby wanted the date so that he can easily remember our anniversary, haha).

The pictures that the photographer (from Prettypeektures) took for all three events was around 1000 plus!! So you can imagine the difficulty I had in choosing the pics for our storyboard. But all in all, it was a fun experience.

So for now, enjoy the pics that I chose to be posted here. Sorry I can't post a lot. Too tired laa..... The act of browsing for the pic and the act of waiting for it to upload is too much for me to bear, haha...

SHARIFF & HANIS'S SOLEMNIZATION CEREMONY

8TH AUGUST 2008

Myself prior to being a married woman

With hubby after the solemnization

Hubby during the solemnization

the first kiss

the ring

Me again. (sorry folks, I know the sequence is so like 'huru-hara', haha)

The final touch up by Annie who, by the way, did a great job dolling me up

Looking good, don't you think? haha

With Shariff for our photo session

After the ceremony...

In the 'bilik pengantin'

'on the bed' pose

with the flower petals.... cool, huh?

Me likey.....

before wrapping up for the day

Next up, pictures from my side's reception..... will be back soon!!

'Pop'! goes my ankle!

Guess what?

I sprained my left ankle last Thursday, 15th May 2008 (short of 2 1/2 months before my wedding!). This is getting pretty ridiculous. Cried like a crazy woman after P took me to the clinic immediately after the incident took place. And all that happened because I wanted to pee so bad, and had to be a klutz whilst looking for the washroom at the hotel lobby. *sigh*

The only thing I remembered before I fell to my embarassment was me cringing and the sound 'pop'! from my ankle. Everything happened in slow motion, and i think I remembered saying to myself, 'Shit! I'm falling down in front of these strangers just because i was not careful enough to watch my steps'. Soooo....... embarrassing!!

So the moral of the story here is: 'If you really gotta go, then you gotta go. Don't ever, EVER keep it in till you can't stand it no more!'.

Later at the clinic, it was apparent that something was definitely wrong with me as the pain started to get worse, and my ankle had turned from a 'kinda ok' looking size, to a size of an elephant's! And it didn't help that my other half was looking a bit pissy at me for spraining my own ankle, hence throwing away our plans for the rest of the day.

So there I was, at the clinic's waiting room, with a swollen ankle on my left, and a 'childish attitude' displayed by my other half on my right. Super!

Later, after having my ankle x-rayed (upon my request to eliminate possibilities of a fractured/broken bone), the doctor told me that i had sprained my ankle. The only right thing to do was to rest at home and recuperate.

At that point of time, P was already pissy as it is, and I felt worse at the thought that I might not be able to be in tip top condition, in time for our Singapore trip next weekend to look for our 'hantaran' gifts. The irony of it all, huh? A month off from work for my wedding preparation, only to be shot down with a sprained ankle after 2 weeks of my off time.

Some anti- inflammatory medication, Ponstan, bandage and a tube of cream later for my ankle, I was at home, practicing the 'R.I.C.E' (Rest, Ice, Compression, Elevate) religiously. This is so boring!

By Day One, I had managed to not sit still and told P that I can go to the movies after all to watch 'The Chronicles of Narnia :Prince Caspian' as planned before the klutzy incident. Even had our favourite O'Brien's Irish Sandwiches for dinner. Yum!

Day Two :
After endless naps and watching Sex and The City series for god knows how many times, I have decided to do something useful and stress relieving.... so here I am, blogging!

My ankle's not as swollen as it was during the day of the incident, and I hope that it'll be better so that I don't miss my Singapore trip. Thing that I really wanna do now :

Eat cupcakes/brownies~ eat Sushi King~ eat Bakerzin's strawberry tarts ~ buy an ankle support to help my movement ~ go to Mecca for Umrah after Hari Raya....

I miss a whole load of things. weekends spent with P, my perfectly healthy ankle, my sanity!!

Hope to get well soon. Till then, Think I'll start with my 'Grey's Anatomy' marathon, for god knows how many times already.

P/s : Is it a bad sign if you are really unsure of things, especially at this point of time??

~Drop The Bomb~

Let's see.

Today is Sunday, 20th April 2008.

Wow! Been that long since the last post, huh?

Where shall i begin? Loads of things happening between now and the last post. In case all of you were wondering what happened to me, I would first like to apologise for my absentism, or rather, my lackness in writing.

As I said before, the reason is always because, there was nothing to write about. Simple. Short. Sweet.

To compensate my lack of enthusiasm in making this blog active, and also my laziness, i shall try to summarise everything that had happened between 24-3-2008 until today. And bear in mind by that, I mean just writing those which are important and significant that had happened. Not some random thingy that I just decide to write because there's nothing interesting to write, hahaha...

Ehem... Here goes...

29-3-2008

Saturday. Was a bit pissy cos me and P had made plans to go to Penang for the weekend. But turned out that P had to attend this 'Blue Ocean Strategy' Seminar at his office. Bummer, right? I wanted to pout and throw a tantrum, and scream and shout for having to cancel our weekend excursion. But as usual, my 'good girlfriend' mode always takes the best out of me. I hated that sometimes you know... Wanting something but ending up being the over compensating person in the relationship. Hated it.

So we ended up just spending the rest of the day (after his stupid seminar) at Pyramid. Window shop, and had dinner at Zen, this Japanese restaurant I was dying to try out. The food was really good. Definitely will make another visit there. (Sorry folks, no pics whatsoever as I didn't bring my camera, and...ermm.... i felt fat, hahaha!)

Was home by 9ish. All in all it was a really short excursion. just 3 hours but wtf, what else is there to do when you are in a 4 year relationship with ur honey, right? It's like, most of the exciting stuff that you wanna do together, you'll be saying, 'Been there, done that!'. Duhhhhh..... So you end up doing the usual 'wtf this is so lame but there's nothing better to do' stuff, like going to the movies. And EAT! Eat here, eat there. Breakfast. Brunch. Lunch. Tea. Snacks. Dinner. Supper. You name it, we'd done it!

Hmmmm....... No wonder la so 'montok' already wtf....

30-3-2008

Sunday. Woke up early as usual even though it's a weekend (I'm a moring person la...Can't do anything about it). But this time i have the luxury of being a stinkin' babe, by not showering til noon! Heheh.

Went for a manicure and pedicure at 1ish. Went to see P at 4ish. Funny, I totally wanted to cancel my outing with him that day since seeing the result of us meeting was us ending up eating and turning me into a fatso, but decided to meet him after all. You know why? Cos I sayang him, that's why!

So yeah, we wnet out after all that day. Picked him up at his place. He was smartly dressed, with his blue British India shirt (wtf?), and he shaved!(wtf?).

Me : Hello bucuk! You look really nice today. How come aa??

Him : Erm... nothing. Just decided to wear nice clothes now on when meeting you...

Me : Oh (looking at him suspiciously).... Ok. Hmmm... You even shaved, baby!! (whilst touching his smooth cheek)

Him : (Grinning) erm... yeah.

Me : (still looking at him suspiciously)

So off we went to Bangsar, and ended up at Bangsar Village II. Had Haagen-Dazs (see! I told you!wtf), and bought some fruits at the pasar malam. Suddenly remembered Amy, and all those pasar malam excursions that she and I had when P was stationed in Penang for work. Missed her company.

Was about 8ish when we decided that we had enough of the pasar malam, so I told P that we should get back home. As we were walking towards the car..

Me : P, I don't feel like going home just yet.

Him : Ok. Let's put the fruits in the car, and we can go somewhere for drinks.

Me : Yeay! okie....

So off we went to put the fruits, and headed ourselves to Starbucks. Ordered myself a green tea frappucino, while he ordered a caramel frappucino for himself. Took the seat at a corner, and we chatted unimportant stuff for about 15 minutes. Thereafter remembered that we had postponed our Penang trip to next weekend, so me, being the most exciting person between the two when it comes to trips, started to write things that we wanna do whilst in penang on one of the recycled Starbucks serviette paper. Midway in me writing, P squeezed my hand...

Him : Do you like going for trips with me?

Me : (while still writing on the serviette and not looking up to him) Yes baby. Of course I do.

Him : Really?

Me : Yes darling. I love going places with you. But it's so hard since we have to make up stories to our parents in order for us to do that. You know what I mean, right?

Him : (Nodded his head)

Are you happy with me?

Me : I am happy with you..

Him : Do you love me?

Me : yes baby. I love you.. (at this point, I started to feel weird with his 21 questions. So i squeezed his hand to show him how much he means to me)

Him : Are you really happy with me?

Me : (Now looking at him suspiciously again) Yes baby... I am happy with you. Happy,happy sangat....

Him : Do you love me?

Me : P! I love you. I love you so much. I adore you. You know that right?

Him : (nodded his head, while squeezing my hand tight, and staring at me)

Me : (now feeling awkward) Erm.... Are you happy with me baby?

Him : (smiled and nodded)

Me : Do you love me? (ok. I was just asking him back all the questions cos i don't know wtf to do!)

Him : (smiled and nodded again). Yes! I love you so much!

Me : Ok, cool! (smiled and continued writing)

Him : You know what we can do to solve our problem when it comes to going away together for holidays?

Me : What? Us not going for holidays at all? (I scoffed, and giving him the look at the same time)

Him : No.

Me : Then what?

Him : If we were to get married.

Me : (suddenly turned wide-eyed) Are you serious p?

Him : Yes (smiling). I love you, and I want to spend the rest of my life with you. Will you marry me?

Me : (Now teary-eyed but have to control macho cos i am in the middle of starbucks wtf!)

P? Are you joking? Don't do this. This is no laughing matter ok...

Him : I wanna marry you. Will you marry me?

Me : yes! YES! Of course I'll marry you!

[Note : At the time when he proposed, I was wearing this hamsap t-shirt, my black granny skirt, and selipar jamban! so chic, huh? Of all the days that he decided to propose, he decided to do it when I was not at my best appearance, haiya!]

He then went on to say that Istana Hotel is free on 8.8.08 (later found out it was not Istana, but Crowne Plaza Mutiara) and he wanted to get engaged in April and get married in August. I told him (under my shortness of breath as i was excited like crazy) that it's not possible as my sister's getting engaged in May, and my mum will freak out to know that she need to prepare another engagement ceremony for me in short of a time.

He told me that I should get back and discuss with my parents about it. I excitedly agreed, and sent him home.

In the car, he took out this gold ring. I was so happy, but told him that righfully his parents should come over and meet my parents, and only then the ring will be given to me.

Went home, told my family about it. Mum was the happiest. I slept that night with a smile.

OOooOOh.. realised that this entry is really long. Think I'll stop here, and write the rest again tomorrow.

Till then. Till then.....

Tagged : I'm tired of everything

It's 30 minutes past midnite. After several hours of continuous sleep the whole day yesterday, I could not even get to lay my head on the pillow for a doze.. It's Monday morning by the way. Yeap, I spent the whole Sunday sleeping and doing nothing fruitful. And all that because of the medication that i took to relieve my dear self from the cough, sore throat and also flu that kept on bugging me since last week. So here I am, not being able to sleep, hence forcing myself to write something in here..

I have been postponing putting up an entry in this blog for quite some time. Just waiting for the right moment before getting down to business, hehe... Guess this is the right time then, huh?

Life so far has been ...... full of downs rather than ups.

I have been constantly swarmed with negative feelings, most of them I can't comprehend. Most of the time, I'll be sitting in a corner and cry. And after all those episodes, I just realised that deep down in my heart, I am not happy.

All this while, I have been faking smiles after smiles. Truth is, I am not happy at all.

I am holding grudges, resentment, frustration and also anger not only to myself, but to everyone that matters most to me.

I had an episode again just now. Waking up and staring at the watch, I realised that i had been moping all day in my room. And then, I started to cry all over again. I cried for a good 30 minutes. God! This is so depressing. I am sick of being in this kind of state.

I just want change. Change for the better. But yet, in me wanting to achieve change, I am afraid of change altogether. Is this normal? Can I even have those two contradictory feelings side by side. Like, 15 minutes of wanting, and another 15 miutes thereafter of fearing?

Life is so full of mysteries. I just hope that one day I would be able to know what is best for myself.

Aside from me experiencing 'cuckoo-ness' phase, a lot of things happened since i last posted an entry. For one, there's Hannah's birthday party that the family organised successfully, (i must say). Then there's the Sunburst Festival in which i got free tix from p's sis, khad (thanks babe). Managed to only watch The Roots and also John Legend (in which these were the only two acts that I wanted to watch, and no one else).

Then there's me having one friday off and venturing into KL city centre with P. Fun, huh??

I will post soon. In the meantime, here are some pics. Oh yeah, pardon my chubbiness, hahaha... am sooooo fat now!! will need to diet asap, erk!!!!

*muahss*

Hannah's Birthday cake, courtesy of Yours Truly.... Cute huh??

With sis and the birdie mascot from MacDonalds

Hannah blowing the candles

Cutting the cake

Me and Cimeen!!

One for the camera..... the people who made the party possible

Pic taken by brother using his friend's Canon DSLR camera

Cimeen, meself and cousin, Emi

Waiting for John Legend to perform after The Roots, woohoo!

Mr. John Legend himself. Sooooo...... hemsem i tell u!

And such a crooner too!! *meltzz*

Us with our muka 'tak larats'


The Friday outing. P being anal by purposely pressing the wrong button. Like, duhh!!

This pic was not suppose to be here. salah sequence, hahaha

From LVMH building after repairing P's watch, to Pavilion....

'Izzi Restaurant', the place where the owner told me and P (in his Indo accent), 'Montok itu bagussssss!!".... Hated him for saying me montok...cheh!

Posing near one of the F1 cars displayed alongside Bukit Bintang Road... It's the F1 week btw

Being touristy now, forcing P to snap pictures in KL city centre. Like, so kiasu or what?? In front of Pavilion..... hehehehe

Kiasu some more, uhuhuhu.....

Me snapping a pic of myself in front of Shu Umuera's lash bar.... and P looking at who i have no idea!!! Cheh....

I am officially being touristy. Me with the Uhu-hu gals of The Loaf... hohoho

Seen here teaching P how to be a camwhore.... LOL!!

Bored waiting for him trying shoes @ Nike

Uhu!Hu! cheesecakes from The Loaf. Only for the month of March...

So cute right??? And delish too! Yummy!

Ooops.... Realised that I have taken 2 hours to blog this entry. Need to force myself to sleep now. Tomorrow's a working day..... Ciao!!

How Now??

What is it about me and not eating according to time? I just don't know, but it's as if I have been ignoring my body's need for food. So much so that I have yet to have my lunch, and it's now 2.30 pm! *sigh* I think someone should monitor my food intake and also my meal time. Judging from the gastric episode I had 2 weeks back (in which I hope there will not be another episode of it!), it's high time that I take care of my tummy. And by that, I mean eating according to time, and only consuming healthy food, and not junk food that's easily available everywhere you go nowadays.

On another note, I am slowly drowning in my own feeling of resentment (to a heck of a LOT of people). Those that made me adore them, and those that made me hate them. I so am resenting them now!

I hate you people..... All of you. Even to those that I love and care about.

Hate, hate, hate........

Entry No. 30

This is my entry no. 30. How cool is that? Not that it's a cause for celebration, but knowing the fact that I still keep my blog running until now is truly an achievement.

Yesterday I had a conversation with P about me wanting a notebook to write down things that occur for the day in order for me to write later. I also think that a notebook would be a good idea since most of the idea that I get about stuffs to write in here would always come suddenly and without warning, at odd times and odd places (hence never in front of the computer).

So this morning as I was heading my way to Court, I was jotting down the one thing that I have to write in here :

My protein shake is so darn yummy!!

Had decided to actually drink protein shake so that my gastric won't go berserk like the one experienced 3 days backs. Was literally bedridden for 2 days, and at the time the only thing i could think of was :

No more laksa!! (cos the episode started after a bowl of laksa at Uncle Lim's)
I miss him
I need him
I hate him
I wanna forget him
Did he forget about me?
Heck I don't wanna be overstraining myself with rpm classes

So yeah, that was how the protein shake routine started off (besides me wanting to lose weight and using protein shake as a meal replacement when feeling ravenous).

P's gone for the weekend. Off to A'Famosa Resort for some team building shit. Doesn't matter. I know he loves me, and the feeling's mutual.

D chatted with me for awhile today, and during that brief moment, my decision in wanting to just forget about him dissappeared. Evaporated into thin air. Like, who am I kidding, right??

Am loving ne-yo's new song, 'go on girl'. It's fab!!

buggering moment

It's Monday, and i feel like sleeping and just do nothing!!

The a/c in my office is so f'ing cold! Am visioning my tits falling off after being frozen by the full blast a/c.

overall, i hate this. Hated it. hated it bits.

If not for the lunch break at 1pm (which, by the way was a bit better the fact that baby came over to accompany me), I would have just pack my stuff and go home! *sigh*

Weekend was as usual. However, had wished that i hadn't gone out with baby yesterday. Felt like just hibernating at home and watch dvd and/or read some books, but who am i kidding at the end? myself i guess. walking outside and having a clearer view of the world is tonnes greater than just cooping up in my room. But somehow, nowadays i tend to get easily annoyed with him. I just dont know why. But i think 50% of the cause could be attributed to me going through my pms state rite now. whaddaya know, huh?

Oh yeah, talking about pms and all that crap, i'm beginning to feel restless with my current condition and/or state. been eating like a pig, sleeping like forever, and worse of all, my boobs are sore! I hope it's just pms, and nothing else. hmmmm.... wonder if i should tell baby about my concerns? but i guess not.

Not until i'm due and it still hasn't arrive....

THEN i should worry...

And until then, I shall let my sore boobies make me cranky, and piss with all the things that's making me pissy (like me not being happy with my state/condition)

bugger!!

The V-Day Surprise

Yesterday night, as I was crying my eyeballs out due to the mixed emotions that came so suddenly (like a batch of destructive tsunami waves that hit Batu Ferringhi), I have vowed to myself never ever again to let my heart out in the open, to be poked and played by insensitive idiots.

This morning, on Valentine’s Day, I quickly told myself (while shampooing in the shower) that I will not be having any expectation as to anything sweet to happen.

So there I was, in court, pondering on what time would be the most suitable for me to walk into the office without so much as having that ‘hopeful’ feeling above my head. In delaying the same, I suggested to myself to head to USJ Taipan to pay for my handphone bill. But that only lasted for 30 minutes. So in the end, I was in my room by noon. And as anticipated, there was nothing in my room that was out of the ordinary. Just stacks and stacks of files on the floor and on my table. *Sigh*.

Come lunchtime an hour later, I decided to reward myself by buying a book at MPH. Browsed the bookstore for nearly a good 45 minutes, then decided to buy two instead of one book as planned! Here are the books :-


Got into the office by 1.40 pm, and still there was no bouquet or anything in sight. ‘He must’ve thought that there’s no need to give me anymore flowers’, I sighed, and proceeded to open the plastic cover of the books that I bought, and began reading Andrew Leci’s ‘Once Removed’.

20 minutes into my reading, I heard a soft knock on the door. Not taking my eyes off the page I was reading, I asked my receptionist to come in. And lo and behold! A bouquet of flowers in her hands! For me! And I knew there and then it was from P.

I quickly read the card that came with it. It was written:-

I was so happy that I was grinning from ear to ear! Quickly I wrote an sms to P:
Me : Baby I just got the flowers! It’s pretty! Erm….what’s 40568308**?
Him : U should have gotten them this morning. You can figure out the meaning…

I looked at the numberings again, and this time I jotted down the numbers to a clean piece of paper. After a good few minutes of pondering, I noticed my hand phone keypad, with certain alphabet assigned to certain numbers. Quickly I deciphered it, and after getting the answer, I sms P.

Me : P…. I finally managed to decipher the code.
I love you too!!! *muahs*

Isn't he a sweetie? I mean, never once did I imagine him being THAT creative in surprising me. He's such a darling..... (For those still in the dark of what '40568308** means, it's just 'I Love You..')

Now I feel guilty for not buying him anything for V day. le sigh. So in order as not to be looked at as an insensitive girlfriend, I quickly went to the DVD shop and bought him 'Rome' the series, both the full 1st and 2nd Season.

Coming back from work and ready for yet another surprise (according to my darling P, but heck of course I knew he already made dinner reservations somewhere nice for V-day!), I quickly wrapped the gift and crossing my fingers (in my head, as I can't possibly do that while wrapping the gift, duh!!) so that he'll love the dvd set and in turn will love me more (bribery,bribery).

Dinner turned out to be at Ciao, the Italian Restaurant that I so wanted to go, and have been pestering P to come with me to experience the food there since last year! It was a nice set valentine menu (they only cook that set specially for the day, so u can't order anything else on their normal menu) which costs P about RM180++ per person! Thank god for the excellent food (if not for the slow service which I find irritatingly unbearable. I mean, how bad can it get, just serving the same thing to a dozen of lovebirds under the candlelight right? They managed to make a big boo-boo blunder with just that! *Sigh*, again)...

Anyhow, dinner then ended around 10.30pm, and now P's starting to wonder whether we should just hang out until midnight, or for him to send me straight home (see, my birthday's a day after V-day). In him being indecisive, i suggested we head to Bangsar so that i could deposit my cheque, and hopefully, to kill time until midnite.

After the cheque deposit chore, we found out that we still have an hour to spare! So I just told him to drive me back home, where thereafter i'd shoved the dvd gift to P. He was delighted, and I was too. He loved (i hope) the gift. yeay!!

After waiting for a good 20 minutes in the car in front of my house, midnite came. He kissed me happy birthday, and told me that he loves me. I reciprocate the same in return (the kiss and 'i love you', not the wishing of happy birthday), and went inside the house. I felt deprived, amidst me feeling amorous and wanting to just do it with my sweetie. *sigh* yet again!

At home, loads and loads of smses came in wishing me Happy Birthday. Thank you to all who've wished me, and I am so happy to have u guys as a friend/colleague/family member. The best sms was from P....

"I'm already home. Happy Birthday! I love you...... *mwah* *mwah* *mwah* *mwah* *mwah*

I love you too, baby!

Oh yeah, and i also love Andrew Leci's 'Once Removed'. It's hillarious! Am enjoying the book now as I'm writing this entry. Only managed to finish 1/4 of the book, and looking forward to more of 'em!!

The bouquet at the office (amidst the law books and stack of files)

The bouquet @ home

Pretty, right? thank u baby

Oh yeah, the stalk of rose that I got @ Ciao (courtesy of Ciao, of course!)

Is this how longing feels like?

I am in a state between depression, sadness, longing, madness. Everything bottled up in one and are felt at the same time.

I miss someone so badly. Someone who calls me 'weirdo' and 'geek' ever so often.

Someone who finds my likes and dislikes fascinating.

Someone who thinks that I am oblivious to who I am as a person, but yet still finds me attractive knowing that I am just that.

Someone who thinks that the word 'geek' and 'hot' can go hand in hand.

In me missing, I realised that sometimes the things that you don't have, are the things that you long for.....

I wish that someone the best in life, and I pray that fate brings me closer to that someone in the future.

For the time being, I am blessed having the people that I love and sayang around me.......

The one person that I can't live without.......

where I can just be me around him...

My favourite mistake

my critic

Always and always.......

I can't also live without my family.... My life

Who made me who I am today.......

P/s: Geek...... If only time was on our side!!